Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Jury Duty Tursday

Well, I have jury duty on Thursday, so I guess I don't be counting calories or checking in here. I'll try to be good though. Really, really good.
Breakfast ~ Iced Tea Calories 230

Lunch ~mini bagels Calories 100
1/2 slice cheese Calories 25
fake bacon Calories 40
Lite Mayo Calories 20
Crackers Calories 100

Dinner ~Soup with fake egg Calories 330
Pretzels Calories 100
Ice Cream Cup Calories 100
Gum Calories 5

Total for the Day ~ 1,050

Monday, January 26, 2009

So I had a thought tonight... Shut up! I have lots of thoughts! Oh, sorry. I'm used to defending myself at home and work against seemily witty sarcasm :)

I was thinking... Maybe I should try and plan some of my meals the day before, so I can cut out some calories before I have even eaten anything. For example, I might be so hungry as I am making the food I will make more than I need... Or put on extra condiments. So tomorrow I have already made my breakfast and lunch!

So I haven't planned dinner yet, but I am thinking that it might involve some fake eggs :)

I don't know if this is a good plan yet or not. But I think that my delicious bagel sandwich for 165 calories will be a lot better than the peanut butter crackers that I usually eat for breakfast, though the crackers are 15 calories less.

It's funny -- I don't know if any members of PBS are reading this blog - I know a few have checked it out, but I don't think that they are regular readers. Yesterday someone posted a link in the forum about "The Skinnies" people who eat heavily calorie restricted diets. I followed a link a few post later, and it was an artice about a person who lived a severely calorie restricted diet for a couple of months.

Honestly, from what was said in the article, I am eating about the same amount of calories as them, and sometimes less. I don't feel that I am really freakish though -Freakish enough to have a news article, anyway. I don't really understand the difference between them and going on a strict diet? I'm just living here. Just living and trying not to collapse as I walk up flights of stairs.

UPDATE!

Um, okay, that didn't work very well. The only thing that stayed the same was breakfast!


Breakfast ~ Bagel, fake bacon,cheese Calories 165

Snack ~ Pudding cup Calories 90

Lunch ~ Fresh summer rolls Calories 256
Sauce Calories 200

Dinner ~ Chicken Bites Calories 150
Corn Calories 180
Eggs w/ ketchup Calories 130
Ice Cream Calories 100

Snack ~ Pretzels Calories 100

Total for the Day ~ 1,371
Breakfast ~ Coffee with milk Calories 50
PB Crackers Calories 140

Lunch ~ Granola bar Calories 100
popcorn Calories 100

Snack ~ Sugar-free Jello Calories 10

Dinner ~ 2 mini bagels Calories 200
1 slice cheese Calories 50
4 slices fake bacon Calories 80
Mayo Calories 100
Asparagus Calories 60

Dessert Ice Cream cup Calories 100
Gum Calories 5

Total for the Day ~ 995

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Lunch ~ 2 slices cheese pizza Calories 580

Dinner ~ Mushroom alfredo noodles Calories 580 <- Yikes!
Ketchup Calories 45

Total for the Day ~ 1,205

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Lunch ~ Hot Dog Calories 170
Cottage Cheese Calories 120
Ketchup Calories 30
Pretzels Calories 100

Dinner ~ Soup with fake egg Calories 330
Corn Calories 180
Ice Cream Cup Calories 100

Total for the Day ~ 1,030

Okay, now I have a story to tell. It's really not a nice story, but it's true, and it's what's on my mind as I am typing this.

My husband's birthday was a week ago, and I got him "The Iron Gym" As seen on TV!! And if you were to read the box or the reviews, you would know that this things has a 300 pound weight limit.

Well, I was playing around on it today, and J said "What are you doing? That thing has a weight limit you know! How much do you weigh these days?" And I thought he was joking around, because even though I am kind of fat, I am nowhere NEAR 300 pounds. I'm not even 200 pounds.So I jokingly say "A lot!" and he says really seriously "No, really, how much do you weigh? You are going to break it." And of course I am shocked, and I say " It's things like that that make girls anorexic." and I leave the room, go into my bedroom, and slam the door. And cry for about 45 minutes.

I mean, you see what I am eating, and the amount of calories. I have been doing this for 3 weeks now - I feel like if I ate any less to lose weight faster I might collapse. I am so hungry and have a headache almost all of the time. It's rough.

Of course he has apologized five or six times, got me tissues when I was bawling on the floor, and brought me a Diet Pepsi - But it still freaking hurts. Does he really see me as weighing over the 300 pound weight limit? At my absolute heaviest I was 185 pounds. That's only 20 pounds more than he weighs right now, and he doesn't seem to be in any danger of breaking his new "toy".

He really hurt my feelings, and I'm not sure if it makes me feel like dropping the diet and eating everything in sight --- I'll show him what 300 pounds looks like. Or if ut makes me feel like eating absolutely nothing, and when I collapse of malnutrition then maybe he will feel as badly as I feel right now, knowing that it was his fault.

But I guess I will choose to do nothing, and just try and keep to my diet as much as possible.

I actually got a compliment today -- I am a member of a message board, and I met one of the members in person for the first time yesterday. Today people on the board were asking for opinions on the Wii Fit, and my response was:

I have a Wii and Wii Fit... I used the Fit a lot at first, but now it's mostly collecting dust. Oh, and I use it as a scale. However I am fat and lazy, a more energetic person might get more fun for their money.

And this person was nice enough to chime in with:

Um, you are NOT at all fat...

Which is aparently not true, according to my husband... But it was nice for them to say that, and it made me smile a little after my bad afternoon.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Breakfast ~ Peanut Butter Crackers Calories 140

Lunch ~ Fresh summer rolls Calories 256
Sauce Calories 200

Dinner ~ Roast Beef sub Calories 390
Doritos <--BAD BAD! Calories 250
Pretzels Calories 100
Gum Calories 10


Total for the Day ~ 1,346 <-- Wow. I guess I won't be losing any weight today! At least I am being honest with myself!!! Oh, and of course, since tomorrow is "FREE FRIDAY" I won't be posting any calorie-counts. I'm not sure where the boys and I will be going for lunch, but you can bet I won't be eating a salad!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Breakfast ~ Cream of Wheat made with water Calories ~ 100
Iced Coffee with milk & Splenda Calories ~ 50

Lunch ~ Lean Cuisine flatbread Pizza Calories ~ 340

Dinner ~ Asparagus Calories ~ 60
Corn Calories ~ 120
Chicken Calories ~ 130

Snack ~ Jello Calories ~ 10
Pretzels Calories ~ 100

Dessert ~ Ice Cream cup Calories ~ 100

Total for the Day ~ 1,010

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Breakfast ~ cashews Calories ~ 170

Lunch ~ Chicken Soup Calories ~ 150
2 tiny carrot cakes Calories ~ 66

Snack ~ Candy Cane Calories ~ 50

Dinner ~ Fake Eggs with cheese Calories ~ 140
Asparagus Calories ~ 60
Ketchup Calories ~ 60
Dessert Calories ~ 200
Drink Calories ~ 15

Total for Day ~ 911

Monday, January 19, 2009

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Dieting Disaster!

*Sigh* Well, J's birthday weekend was definitely a "Dieting Disaster" for me. I went into it strong, but by Saturday I was eating everything in sight :(

So here I am, it's Monday, and I'm starting fresh! And I also was thinking - I seem to be eating almost the same thing every day, it must get pretty boring for anyone else to read. So here's a cute picture! It's just the whale and birds from when Twitter.com goes down for a break, but I always thought it was adorable. I'll try to find something better next time.

Breakfast ~ Iced Coffee Calories ~ 50
PB Crackers Calories ~ 140

Lunch ~ Soup at Hand, tomato Calories ~ 120
2 snack pack of crackers Calories ~ 200

Snack ~ Jello Sugar-free cup Calories ~ 10

Dinner ~ Chicken Patties Calories ~ 260
Corn on the cob Calories ~ 180
Cookie Pack Calories ~ 100

Total for the Day ~ 1,060











Friday, January 16, 2009

Breakfast ~ Crystal Light fruit punch Calories ~ 10

Lunch ~

Thursday, January 15, 2009

1/2 Bad today

Well, today's calorie count will be a little different...

Breakfast ~ coffee & PB crackers Calories ~ 150

Lunch ~ Fresh summer rolls Calories 256
Sauce Calories 200

But for dinner I won't be counting my calories. My Hubby's birthday is tomorrow, and tonight we are doing a "mini-celebration" by ordering pizza and wings. Saturday will be his real party with the whole family, so I won't be counting on Saturday afternoon, either!

I will definitely try to be sensible about it, though. I am thinking that I might just eat some wings, and no pizza. Who knows. Please god of the diets, give me strength to resist too many tasty things. I just have to remember... This probably won't be my last meal of pizza and wings, so I don't have to overdo it - I could order them every night if I wanted to! I just have to remember that I don't want to - I would rather eat lower calorie foods. Er, at least I am trying to convince myself of that :)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Breakfast ~ PB crackers Calories ~ 140
Crystal Light fruit punch Calories ~ 10

Lunch ~ Soup at Hand Tomato Calories ~ 120
Jolly Time Popcorn Calories ~ 100
Hersheys Snackster Calories ~ 100

Dinner ~ Cottage Cheese Calories ~ 100
Chicken patty Calories ~ 130
Corn on the cob Calories ~ 180
Cookie Calories ~ 100
Gum Calories ~ 5

Total for the day ~ 985

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

ADOPTION NEWS

So, completely unrelated to dieting...

I got a call from our social worker yesterday. She was calling to tell me that our homestudy and background CORI got approved!!!! YAY!!! Now we are legally certified to foster or adopt in the state of MA.

Now we just have to sit back and wait for a kid! YAY YAY YAY!

Day 8... OCTOPUS DAY!!!!!!!!!!!


Today is a very special day in my diet... It's the 8th day, therefore Octopus Day! No no NO! I don't mean to eat them...

Breakfast ~ Iced coffee with milk and Splenda Calories ~ 50
Peanut butter crackers Calories ~ 140

Lunch ~ Chunky beef & potato soup Calories ~ 260
Rice Crispy Treat Calories ~ 90
Drink Calories ~ 5

Dinner ~ Chicken breast with seasoning Calories ~ 130 <-- Perdue single
Corn on the cob w/ 0 cal spray Calories ~ 140
Hersheys snacker pack Calories ~ 100
Gum Calories ~ 10

Total for day ~ 925

Monday, January 12, 2009

1 Week!

Well, here it is, a week after I started my diet! Wii Fit says that I have lost 4 pounds, but I don't really know if that is accurate, because I was wearing different clothing than the previous time I used it.

I think I am going to go to Subway for lunch today. I need to drop off a package for work at the Fedex center, and it's only a couple of doors down from Subway. Did you know that I used to work there? Yup. Age 16-18, I was your sub girl from 5PM-9PM. No, I never got sick of eating there! I actually got the job because I would come in almost every day after school to get a sub for dinner.

I am going to have to check their website to see what kind of deliciousness I can get for the least calories. I am thinking maybe a roast beef with no cheese. I gotta have my mayo though! IIRC, the mayo is "lite" and is only 20 calories per serving on a 6 inch.

Breakfast ~ Coffee with milk and spenda Calories ~ 50
Granola Bar Calories ~ 100

Lunch ~ Subway Veggie Patty 6" Calories ~ 430 <-- I asked for extra mayo!

Dinner ~ Subway Veggie Patty 6" Calories ~ 430
Cottage Cheese with salsa Calories ~ 130
Diet gum Calories ~ 5

Total for the day ~ 1,145

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Lunch ~ Lean Cuisine Mac & Cheese Calories 290
Ketchup (yes, I need it!) Calories 45

Dinner ~ Ramen with a hot dog & onion Calories 550 <-- YIKES!
Ketchup (yes, I need it!) Calories 45
Crackers Calories 70
PB Cookie pack Calories 100
Gum Calories 10

Total for the Day ~ 1,110

Wow, I guess I kind of over-did it with the Ramen & hot dog combo. I guess the difference is, I used to eat it with TWO hot dogs, AND an egg mixed in. So I am progressing :)
Those little 100 calorie snack pack dessert things are saving my life! I absolutely have to have something sweet after dinner, and these are great! As I was going through the coupons from the paper today, I clipped one for 100 calorie packs of Twinkies!!! YUM!!! I am going to have to see if they have them next time I'm at Stop & Shop.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

My first Dieting Saturday

I've gotten myself back on track for today! Not only did I have a low-calorie lunch, I also broke out the Wii Fit and dusted it off. It said it's been 40 days since I used it, and it would bo correct! I stopped using it around Tanksgiving, I think.

I'm not sure what to have for dinner, usually on Saturdays we either go out somewhere, or order pizza in. I plan on going out later on after I clean my aquarium, maybe I will stop by Stop & Shop and pick up something tasty and low-calorie. Maybe.

Lunch ~ Single hot dog (no bun) cooked with onions Calories 170
Cottage Cheese with tomatos Calories 160

Dinner ~ Dinner ~ Fresh summer rolls Calories 256
Sauce (They gave me extra today.) Calories 350
1 sip of Hubby's drink Calories 15
2 pieces diet gum Calories 5
Cookie pack Calories 100

Total for the day ~ 1,056



Friday, January 9, 2009

Bad Dawn, BAD BAD!

Today I broke down and ate Mexican food with the guys for lunch!!!!!

However, as bad as that was, I didn't eat any breakfast or any dinner or any snacks... So hopefully I didn't ruin all of my progress for the past week.

Wish me strength for tomorrow and Sunday ~ I always eat the worst on the weekends.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Day 4


Well, here I am on Day 4, yay me!

Last night was really difficult for me. Hubby had brought home a giant bag of turkey that his Mom had sent home with him (they work together) and he was eating it in front of me, and he kept asking me if I wanted some. Cruel. However, I persevered, and didn't eat any!

I am worried about tomorrow ~ On Fridays everyone in my office goes out to eat lunch together. Normally I am really excited to go, and I go around and ask everyone where they would like to eat that day. But I don't even know if I should go tomorrow or not. My willpower is really not very good, so if we go to one of my favorite places I don't think I will be able to get something "diet" like a salad or veggie plate. Also, we always split the bill evenly, and it usually ends up being $20-$25, and I don't want to pay that much for a salad I didn't want in the first place!
Fridays are usually like a "bonding time" though, and I don't want to miss out on anything. Maybe I will eat before we go, and just get a drink.

Huummm.... So what have we learned from today's rambles? I'm fat and cheap. That's okay. If I keep doing well on my diet eventually I will just be cheap! Haha!

Breakfast ~ Granola bar Calories 100
Iced coffee with milk Calories 50

Lunch ~ Chunky Steak & Potato Soup Calories 260
Crackers Calories 140

Dinner ~ Mac & Cheese Calories 490<--- BAD!
Ketchup ( for M&C ) Calories 45
Cookie Pack Calories 100


Total for day ~ 1,185


Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Day 3

Breakfast ~ Crackers (4 peanut butter) Calories 140
Drink (energy Fizz) Calories 10

Lunch ~ Soup Chicken Noodle Calories 200
Crackers (from Japan) Calories 50
Cookie (from the Netherlands) Calories 50

Dinner ~ Chicken/rice Healthy Choice Calories 380
Cottage Cheese w/ tomato Calories 150
Cookie (Oreo 3-pac Calories 100

Total for the day ~ 1,080

WOW! I am pretty proud of myself so far. I have managed to write down everything I ate and come record it. I guess it wasn't that much of a feat, since I am not eating very much :)

I still really don't have a set goal of calories for the day, but "in my mind" I am trying to hit somewhere near 1,000. When I used to diet back in high school and my early 20s, 1,000 was always my calorie goal for the day. I was seriously strict about it, and it was a lot harder to do then, because now they have a lot of really good 100 Calorie snack packs.

Today after work I went to Stop & Shop, and they are having some really great deals on diet-type food:

Progresso Soups are 10/$10
Nabisco 100 Snack Packs are 2/$4
Lean Cuisines are 6/$12 !! That's a pretty good deal.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Breakfast ~ Large sweet tea Calories 230

Lunch ~ Soup Calories 200
Crackers Calories 140
Drink Calories 10

Dinner ~ Fresh summer rolls Calories 256
Sauce Calories 200

Snack ~ Piece of gum Calories 20


Total ~ 1056

Monday, January 5, 2009

New Year's Diet

Well, What are they??!

My goal is to lose 20 pounds. I didn't start my diet on New Year's Day, because I know myself, and I know that I wouldn't have lasted 5 minutes over New Year's Weekend with all of the leftover Christmas treats.

So I started my diet today, Monday the 5th of January, 2009. I don't really have a set goal of what I am going to eat... Just less food, and less fattening food. I am going to try and record what I eat here as often as I can ~ But again, I know myself, so I probably will forget for a few days, then be too lazy to catch back up.

So here we go:

Breakfast ~ Medium iced coffee with milk and splenda Calories 20

Lunch ~ Chunky beef & potato soup Calories 280
Saltines Calories 70

Dinner ~ Mashed potatoes with chicken Calories 600

Dessert ~ 1/2 a bowl of granola with soy milk Calories 170

Total for the day ~ 1140